Navigating Life

Lately life has taken me in unusual directions. Like, am I in control of it, or is it in control of me...?

In my situation this is a very good question. The course of my life depends highly on the true answer to this question. Who really is in control, who has been in control, and who will likely remain in control.

I feel that I have zero control, so far anyway. And currently too. Can you imagine how this must feel?

I cannot drive safely and likely never will. I cannot work, but will likely be expected to. (thats just the way things go) I am not safe being alone or doing anything on my own.

I know, STB (shitte the bed). Stuck in the bad part of a bad situation, and it's wearing on me when I let it. Although I usually stay strong. I find that to be the best area to survive in. And my few friends are dear to me.

Anyway, that is my 50 cents on the subject. Who knows...maybe things will get to looking better, even if they are basically the same. Its all in how you look at things I guess.

timmy